I won't attempt to speak for others (though I'm guessing I'm not alone) when I say that I believe my life is more of a passion for following Jesus than actually following Jesus. There is a deep yearning to live my life in the ways of Jesus, but the yearning doesn't always translate to the actual doing. People speak of how anti-Christian our culture is, though such statements tend to be said by a certain group seeking a uniformity of belief that has more to do with politics than it does Jesus. Oh sure, there are certainly places where the Jesus-life engages, informs and challenges the political realm, but we have allowed too much of Christianity to be swallowed up by a form of civil religion that has really no interest in the daunting task of taking up the cross and follwing him. Too many folks are looking for religious blessing for stuff that drove Jesus crazy and had him saying, "Woe to you..." I'm pretty sure I have fallen into that trap on more than one occasion.
On this website and in my Blog (CLICK HERE), I seek to workout some of my own issues and failures, my hesitations and my unconfessed evading of serious discipleship. Some of it is self-deprecating as laughing at my own failures seems to be the most effective way of actually bringing change to an otherwise status quo life.